Exclusive: More from Transgender Widow

HOUSTON - Only on FOX, more of our exclusive interview featuring a transgender woman whose husband died in the line of duty.

We've gotten a lot of feedback since we first aired the video Thursday night.

It seems the curiosity surrounding Nikki Araguz is growing stronger.

There's now a fight over her late husband's $600,000 estate.

The video we've obtained was shot 15 years ago by a local college student for a film project that was never completed.

In it Nikki gives us a glimpse into her at times painful past and her dreams for the future.

When you look at Nikki you probably see female.

"I work out now with the Cindy Crawford work out video. Thank you Cindy it does a fabulous job to keep this size 27 inch waist," Nikki said.

But throughout the nearly hour long interview, Nikki doesn't try to hide the gender on her birth certificate.

"In second grade some boys moved next door, and that's when I realized boys were supposed to be different than girls. Boys were supposed to play boy things, and girls were supposed to play girl things. I didn't play boy things, and yet I wasn't a girl," she said.

This is the back story of a confusing past that's led to this moment:

A family feud over Nikki's legal rights to her late husband's estate. From the beginning Nikki says her life has never been simple.

"I just thought I was gay because that's all I knew. Other than straight there was gay. There wasn't transsexual, transvestite or transgendered people or whatever you want to say," said Nikki.

As a teenager Nikki says she dressed like a girl for Halloween and a costume contest that aired on local television.

"I was in a lookalike contest to look like Peg Bundy. My hair was teased up big, I shook my ass like Peg Bundy. I had the gaudy pearls and makeup, the tight spandex outfit. But I was way too shy and insecure to announce on local television that I was a boy dressed as a girl for Christ's sake. I was ashamed a bit," she said.

Nikki says sneaking around as a girl soon began taking its toll on her emotionally. She decided to dress the part full time.

"I dressed obscenely feminine. In fact I would say it was slutty," she said.

Nikki says she got a lot of attention from men but was hesitant to reveal just who she was.

"Sometimes I tell them as soon as I meet them. Sometimes they've seen me on TV. Sometimes I just don't tell them."

"I was really insecure and had a very low self esteem. All I knew was how to express myself sexually through sexually acting out," she went on to say.

Nikki says the dating scene left her feeling empty.

"My dream self in five years from now would be happily married with a wonderful career as a talk show host and adopted children," said Nikki.

Nikki says she is a caring individual and believes she would make a great mother.

"I dream about being able to have a child myself, to produce a child in my own body. That's a frequent recurring dream."

At the time of this interview, Nikki says her feminine look was achieved naturally without hormone pills or a sex change operation.

"I eat whatever I want. I work out. It's just natural. Somehow this was me, how I was born. It was a severe mess up on nature's part. Somewhere the sperm hit the egg in the wrong section and knocked something out rather than knocking it in," she said.

Now 35, Nikki's troubled past seems to be foreshadowing a puzzling future, one in which people from across the country are taking sides.

Fox 26 has offered Nikki a chance to talk with us about the video, but so far she hasn't taken us up on that offer.

On Friday the judge agreed to temporarily bar Nikki from spending or collecting death benefits.